Katy coulda kept it The baby inside was restless But maybe the silence kept her From taking the proper steps It’s electric the effect of all the weight And while she wept Across the tracks the clinic waited To take little Hayden’s breath Amazed at all patients there And pissed she overslept Katy waited in the waiting room And soon they got her prepped Sitting naked on the tables where She started to accept The fact that taking lifes a cheaper price Than defects and neglect She just wanted to protect Her relationship with Freddie Wasn’t ready cooked spaghetti Every night Bellies empty Plenty mouths to feed already Stomach different kinda emptied She’s mistaking scalpels for machetes Katy wonders dazed and shaking as she’s going under Whether Fred will flip Give her guilt trips or be a comfort Cause Fred don’t know But if Freddie find out hes gonna suffer Freddie coulda been a father But he never meant to bother Anyone with all his problems He left Katy at the altar Altered by a brew of drugs and alcohol Freddie fell into a deep depression That’s when Katy called He thought that he had learned his lesson Knew that he was wrong to break it off She said baby why can’t we be just a bit involved Freddie said come over Katy You’ve been patient now I’m waiting In my basement taping flicks A quickie now is what I’m craving Katy sat debating in her Chevy contemplating Should she go or stay Always pacing back and forth So frustrating Katy turned the keys and revved the engine Now she’s racing, Heart is aching Hole in her midsection And now a bun in the oven baking The sex was great but it was mating More like procreating Katy didn’t take her pill that day And Freddie never wore a rubber anyway Katy’s conscience wasn’t clean So she went to see the priest She sat behind the screen between them And released, spilled the beans Her dreams are haunted by the face of Hayden Turned into a paste Unwanted Taken from the womb forsaken Satan would be pleased As she grieved The clergy breathed relief And seized the moment Gave condolence and atonement Told her walk the path you’ve chosen Open up your heart it can’t be broken But I see that yours is closed and frozen It’s not hopeless Just go home tonight And focus Apologize or hope the guy don’t notice The sky outside is still not filled with locust’ And Moses aint shown up yet So trust me when I say thet Katy this is not the lowest You can get and if it is Then the ascent will be a bonus On the way home Katy took the route that was the slowest Saw homeless lady with a baby in beat up stroller She felt like life was over Freddie was restless and Katy Had just sent A text That She Needed to see him for breakfast But it just seemed to Fred that it was cause of the necklace She left at his place on the coffee table the last time they had sex When he came in her navel Then thoughts of the cradle slipped into Freddie’s head Because he never felt more stable Had a steady job, nice threads and even bought a used Mercury Sable Knew that he could make enough bread to put food on the table Build a nursery next April Freddie opened up the door to Katy in the corner of the kitchen Fetal position piss all over the floor She screamed you swore to me you pulled out I felt forced into abortion I refused to leave him orphaned Now my body’s sore Fred exits feeling no remorse Clinic infection left her wrecked Red Letters Incorrectly labeled whore So she told her self right then I’ll never go across the tracks again